Friday, April 26, 2013

JUST SOME QUESTIONS

photos courtesy of Gosling Photo
 
1. If you could do one thing differently in your life, what would it be?
    I take these things so seriously, I started tearing up as soon as I read this question. I probably have a lot of things that I would do differently. I will start by saying that I am truly glad I can’t go back and do any of them again (the same or differently). Each event made me who I am. And I like me. But I think that if I had to do one thing differently, I would change what I wanted to be. I wish I didn’t want to be an actor when I was growing up and in college. I wish I had always wanted to be a teacher or a writer or a photographer or a journalist.

2. Where do you see yourself in 5 years?
    I see myself married with a very little one or one on the way. I see myself happy and smiling and frustrated and laughing – the same as now. I see myself moving toward a more authentic lifestyle for me. I see myself with a pile of laundry and a bottle of wine and a bucket of popcorn and a great DVD and laying on the lap of my love.

3. Do you honestly want kids?
    Yes. I think that I was ashamed or embarrassed to admit that what I care most about in life is having a family. I have always been very career focused. What can I accomplish? What is the best I can achieve? That is what I must do. Very recently, I have finally let myself admit that raising a family is more important to me than advancing in the corporate world. This may change. I may change. My dream may change. But right now, I know that I very much want to have kids. Not right now. But in 5 years, oh yeah!

4. What has been the best moment of your life so far?
    The first things that came to my mind were: Senior Showcase, Northwestern, Legally Blonde, Showcase Auditions. Hmmm. I’m not sure if ‘best moment’ = most successful or most fulfilled but that seems to be how I’m thinking of it. All of those times are largely centered around performance – being fully engaged and focused and having a clear purpose.

    I have had MANY many wonderful moments in my life. Some romantic, some familial, some just funny times with friends. So maybe I don’t have a ‘best moment of my life.’ Maybe I have best moments of my life. I do find it interesting though that my gut told me that times when I was giving 100% of myself to performing was my best moment…

5. What is your life theme song?
    I love questions like this. I’m such a nerd! I would say it changes all the time. For the past few years I think “Uncharted” by Sarah Bareilles really captures me. Just listening to the lyrics makes me think and feel connected to the song and it's message.



6. What is one thing you have yet to accomplish that you want to do before you die?
    I want to get married!!! (If this seems silly to you, know that I have a huge fear of failing at this.)
 
7. If you could choose one thing to be known for, what would it be?
    Being a good friend/sister/daughter/wife/mother/grandmother/greatgrandmother. Relationships make my heart soar.

8. If you could do anything you wanted right in this very moment {no consequences, no fear, etc.}, what would it be?
    I would quit my job and go to Australia for the next few months with Josh. And I would have people I love come visit us throughout the summer.

9. What has been the most challenging moment in your life?
    When I was newly 25, I experienced heartbreak and betrayal in a way that still affects me today. I remember very clearly when the truth came out that I had been lied to in inexplicable ways and that my reality was not true. God, my mother, and my closest friends carried me through that experience and in many ways still hold me up when I need it today.

10. Summarize yourself in one word.
    I love these games! In college, my friends unanimously voted on Spunky.
   
    Now I think I would say Real – there is so much of me that is different and constantly changing and honest and this is the best way I can think to explain how I feel about myself. I am not perfect but sometimes I try to be. Other times I wear sweatpants and don’t wash my hair. I can be driven, hopeless, ecstatic, weepy, grumpy, indignant, stubborn, encouraging, loving, lousy, ladylike, loud, and everything in between. I am extremes. I feel extremely awake and then in an instant I need to be asleep. I’m sweating and then I am just too cold. I change all the time. I feel so many things. I show so many sides of myself and I wear my heart on my sleeve. I build myself up and believe in myself and I doubt and break myself down. I am human and humble and proud and hopeful and nervous and real. I am a beautiful contradiction who will always be growing into the person I am meant to be. I am real. And I am all of the mess that comes with it. 

Thanks to Erin for motivating me to do this little questionnaire. I loved it.

1 comment

  1. These are such interesting answers! It's great, I feel I know you a little more now :) I agree with the fear of not getting married- I have a university degree, and a good job, and I am happy with myself- but I am afraid of growing old alone.

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